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  • hmm.. it took me so long to blog again here. so many things happened yet my blog remains the same.. Imma update the layout as soon as time permits me. oh anyway thanx for still visiting thought nothing really change in here. 1600 visitors?! ^_^

    currently reading: fundamentals of nursing. hehe :)

    ciao guys.

Monday, 02 May 2005

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    Pleasure and Pain [Clean]
    By 112
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     Yes, i haven't blogged for quite some time now. And no, i am not apologetic. And no again, i will not herald my return with fanfare and fire trucks. I will just post quietly and then slink into the shadows.

    ApriL 28 - Kriska's 18th birthday.. went at crame, Adamson.

    ApriL 30 to May 1 - overnight at Jane's place.

    current mood: peacefuL

    peceful in the sense that despite the fights and problems I'm having right now im still trying to be in between coz if i let it get over me then it would only make things worse. if I always think on what should happen then I set this as yor ideal life but then we never know what time may bring us into. thinking too much when it comes to some craps is bad . We should let it flow as it was intended to be.

    ôææææææô

    AGAIN

    I watched A walk to remember at HBO awhile ago for the 5th time. And guess what? It never fails to make me cry. ok. AGAIN. nuf' said.. just feel like sharing. hehe!

    "DI KITA IIWAN"

        One of the greatest Lie I ever heard.
        Sure there's an exemption for those who really mean it but then AGAIN majority of them or should I say 99% fails to keep that crap. So what am I trying to say? For the 5th time somebody left me hanging.. at the same ground where He makes me fall. *dang* Is it really hard to keep a promise?? Tell me.

    GEMINI
        Should I start to hate this zodiac sign? HIS zodiac sign? *sobs* Gemini is really a male sign. Don't you agree fella?
    Its really annoying for guys to have a split personalities. Its either they are too fast or too slow. They can be so insensitive and the next day they would start assuming this and that.. misinterpret things and start reading between lines when what we girls really mean is far from what they thought it is. Added to that is when they could sometimes be so mushy and utter sweet-nothings but later act as if they don't seem to care. *sigh*

    ôææææææô

    This isn't for any of you, unless you are A) God, or B)the person I have in mind, and none of you are. I'm serious. This is the kind of post I'd feel like locking, but while it would reach God, it wouldn't reach the person to whom this might matter.

    I do this for penance. Literally. Now, I do not know that I would have done this regardless of whether it had been assigned to me, but I do know that it should have been done, and long before. I was told to think of someone I had not loved enough, and had forgotten to value, then to offer a prayer for said person. Yours wasn't even the name suggested, and yet it was yours that came rushing to the forefront of my mind. It might have been because EVA and I were talking about you before I had confessed. It's funny, because the way things went, and by the way we might never have spoken of each other afterwards, Our agreement of avoiding each other is pretty obvious.

    Now, it might seem a bit out of context for me to work on this now, when all this has nothing to do with my life at the moment, or the funk I've been in as of late. To me, however, it makes perfect sense. To stop dwelling on the events that make my life less than a party, and to find how I can make up for having been such an event in someone else's, no matter how long ago that was, is nothing but perfectly logical to me. While I highly doubt that these wishes of mine would suddenly cause you to find yourself bombarded with super-blessings, I hope that offering them will make a difference just the same.

    * I pray for your true and lasting happiness, and that you find it in the right places.

    * I pray for her, in case there is one, and a deserving her, in case one isn't there yet.

    * I pray that your situation at home improves, and that you all do more for one another.

    * I pray for your children in the near future too. A boy that you were wishing for to be exact.

    * I pray that others show their appreciation for you by not abusing you and for you to notice it in return. Far from the way you never appreciated mine.

    * Corollary to this, I pray that you learn to say no when they start to.

    * I pray that you forgive me for not even making an effort to understand you. Its just so lame as an excuse to say that I don't deserve you. (whatever!)

    * I pray for your personal fulfillment, and that you understand just how many people will be proud of you on your graduation day hopefully on the march of 2008, myself included.

    * I pray that you will always be around to support the friends who have been around to listen to you, and that these friends stay with you in turn. I pray for your friends, too.

    * I pray that we can someday be friends. Real friends.

    * I pray that you do not forget that I was, no, that I am, thankful you exist.

    * I pray that above anything written here, your own prayers are answered.

    Oh, and I pray that you actually get to read this. I never did figure out if you ever found this page. I always got the feeling that you knew more of what was going in my life than I told you. That, coupled with the fact that I vaguely remember telling you that I blog, makes me think the affirmative. You even search for it before right? remember one of the conversation we had where you said your E is for EFFORT? where's that E by the way? But then again if you don't, God will. Which might be even better. If you did read and finish this, thank you. And for everything else. I, personally pray for myself that I never forget your worth. And that you do not forget it either.

Wednesday, 20 April 2005

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    Never Odd or Even
    By Kyle Hollingsworth
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    I feel bad *

    here again:

    April 9:     Teofi's 18th bday! hapPy debut!

    April 10: practice for jane's cotillion.. my third and last practice. hehe!

    April 11:     Boredom almost killed me so I decide to go at eva's place nalang.. I knocked at her door, The knob wasn't locked so pumasok nako. Akala ko I entered the wrong room langya ang linis sobra ng kwarto nya. haha! ibang iba sa room na palagi kong nakikita. kapag depress nga naman kung ano ano na ginagawa para lang di makapagisip kaya naglinis nalang sya ng room.. [ ganyang ganyan din ako kapag depress ] hehe! kaya un, kwentuhan at dramahan nanaman as usual hanggang ginabi nako eh medyo nabitin kami kaya sinamahan ko muna sya sa metro bank to check her account kung napadala na ung allowance nya tapos yosi break hayy nagiging bad girl talaga un kapag depress. *langya talaga si jarvis nakakabadtrip!* Ayaw pa namin umuwi kaya nagmcdo caltex muna kami. That place really brings a lot of memories di lang saming dalawa pati na ata sa lahat ng estudyante ng SJB. tawanan lang hanggang sa sumakit mga panga namin.. hehe! at least masaya kahit papano diba? I checked my watch and it reads 9pm na eh super bitin parin kami kaya niyaya nalang nya ako magsleepover sa kanila. sinamahan nya muna ako sa house to get my clothes and things then I checked emails muna  and after that pumunta na kami sa haws nila. Kwentuhan nanaman then biglang sumakit ung tiyan ko. damn sobrang sakit talaga! dahil yata sa yosi.. ack! capri lang naman un eh! late na nung nakatulog kami pero ang aga namin nagising.. ako natulog ewan ko lang si eva.. parang nakapikit lang! grabe talaga kapag love problem..sapul weakness nya sobra! ULK!

    April 12:     close friend Jane's awaited day! hapPy 18th buddy!Eva and I went at sm north muna to buy gifts. 2pm na wala parin si jhen! whats new? punctuality isn't one of her best quality talaga! guess what time na sya dumating? grabe quarter to 4.. then we went at Tivoli. We arrived there around 6 kasama namin si andrew at kuya amfil. dumating narin sila clifford, mackie at dumalao.. waah! sobrang namiss ko s ford at mackie! nagkwentuhan muna kami about sa mga new teachers at classmates namin then naputol kasi tinawag na kami ni jhen. We need to changed our clothes to pink cocktail dress for the cotillion de honor. The program started with A prayer of course then kainan muna. buffet style sya then sila jean, mackie at ford ang daming food na kinuha.. haha! naglagay ng sariling buffet sa table namin. lolz! Then bumaba na si jane.. grabe ang ganda nya that night so does her escort kuya danley kamukha nya si justin ng full house! hehe! 18 symbolic gift na.. tinawag na ung name ko tapos nagpalakpakan ung mga guys from the other table pati yung mga pinsan ni jane at matindi pa nyan may mga sumisigaw ng san-da-ra! WTF?!! kamukha ko daw si sandara park? the heck! ang layo ah! ok lang sila?? badtrip talaga ung pasimunong pinsan ni jane. magdamag akong kinulit hinatak pako sa dance floor after nung program.. baliw talaga! hehe! 1am na ata natapos yung party dapat magiinuman pa kami kasama si jane kaya lang magchecheck in sila sa hotel after nun kasi uuwi na mom nya sa saipan kinabukasan so we ended up going at mackie's house nalang. jhen, eva, ford, dumlao, mackie and ako lang. pagkatapos namin uminom we slept na.

    apriL 13:     haPpy 6th months eva and jarvis! =D

    apRiL 16:     18th bday ni bessy eva! of course di na ata nawawala ang inuman.. this time mas masaya kasi kasama ung mga pinsan ni jane na super ok kasama. grabe cool silang lahat.. c justin ang nagyaya pero ang daya tinakasan kami.. hehe! takot malasing pero oks lang.. sayang wala si casey mas masaya sana pero ganun talaga ang tadhana.. nananadya ata. hayy.. ='c c richard wala din badtrip super saya sana nun kung andun sya.. nakalimutan kong itxt nawala talaga sa isip ko.. waahh sayang talaga! pero di bale marami pa namang next time. =D

    apriL 19:     library research.. miles, klenton and I went at FEU Library to gather some information needed for our term paper. nakita ko si long lost friend jesmon.. hehe! c marvin din nakita ako kaya lang di ko naman si nakita. tinatawag daw nya ako tapos di ako namamansin eh heck may pagkabingi pa naman ako sayang! para kasing sira nahiya pa sakin.. loko loko talaga un.. that's it :P

    `~`~`~`~`~`~`

    " You can erase someone in your mind, but can you erase someone from your heart? "

    people have this great ability to "selectively forget" what they want to forget - its a great coping mechanism that GoD built us with. it may take some time, a lot of tears, and sometimes even a bit of cash (shopping to feel better), but sooner or later the hurt goes away and we choose to put it at the back of our minds. but from our hearts, are they ever erased? no, i don't think so.. how i wish there's a delete option that I could just click right away and tada you're erased nevertheless forgotten! * dream on! * you see, GoD also built us with this ability to squeeze in an infinite number of people in our hearts. cheesy but true! once someone touches our heart, there's no way on earth that space can be erased.

    `~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`

    If The Feeling Is Gone
             kyla

    If the feeling is gone
    please don't pretend that you still love me
    I can see it in your eyes
    and it hurts to admit it
    I can't tell that the feeling is gone

    All i ask is just a little honestly
    Though i know that you're not coming back to me
    You know i'll do anything to make you stay
    But i just have to let you know
    If the feeling is gone

    There is sadness in your smile
    Though it try to conceive it
    I can't tell if the feeling is gone

    All i ask is just a little honestly
    Though i know that you're not coming back to me
    You know i'll do anything to make you stay
    But i just have to let you know
    If the feeling is gone

    All i ask is just a little honestly
    Though i know that you're not coming back to me
    You know i'll do anything to make you stay
    But i just have to let you know
    I just have to let you know
    If the feeling is gone....

    ++ goodness.. feeling ko kelangan ata magsink sa utak ko ang kanta yang! paulit ulit ko ng pinapakinggan wala parin! *sigh*

    ++ If you want to free your mind, You've got to let go of some feelings..

               * hayy.. super dami ko ng problema tapos nadagdagan pa! tsk! Di ko na kaya so I decided to let go though I never really have him. *ang labo* He just proved something! Boys will always be boys nga naman! aaack! I'm starting to learn how to forget! anyone who knows how? or is there such school/institute teaching the same thing? *pathetic* no more text from him, I guess dun ko muna uumpisahan. *bangs head on the wall* gud luck nalang sakin. so if the feeling is gone then I should learn to let the feeling blown by the winds. If lang ah.. hayy let me know kung meron parin. look back and remeber, then tell me why are we so blind to see that the ones we are hurting is just you and me or worse it was just Me alone! aacck!

    currently feeling: nothing
    currently reading: your mind

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